I feel better now. I kinda had a small rough patch, whether it be me overreacting and spiraling myself into a mood that I hate due to circumstances or just me being stupid. But I feel better. But there's shit about myself that I do genuinely feel like fixing. Mainly uh..understanding that feeling vulnerable is good. Then again i've been indulging that in waifus and whatnot so I dunno if that was a net positive.
wanting to be protected by a character you like is a good feeling though..